Why It's So Hard for Us to Claim Our Clarity

Why is it so hard for us to claim our clarity?

To witness where we know the answers to our questions?

To hold the space of empowerment over what we know to be true within ourselves?

Why does this sometimes feel like the most impossible task to hold for ourselves?

In many of the conversations I have with other women whom I mentor and coach, one of the very first pieces that they come to me about is this...

I am not clear.

I don’t know the way forward.

I don’t know what my purpose is.

I don’t know where to shift in my business.

I lack clarity.

I will tell you that, most often, it is not the case that they don’t have clarity on their path, or direction, or what they are being asked to claim in their lives.

Most of the time, it is because fear is in the undercurrent of their quest, and their fear is masking as confusion, making it hard to step into where they do have clarity.

It is hard for us to claim our clarity because we are scared of the implications that will happen when we do.

We are afraid it might mean we have to actually take action when we have been procrastinating.

Or let go of a vision or relationship what wasn’t meant to be.

We lack faith in our ability to build anew, change directions, and to trust that whatever we are being asked to step away from, dismantle, or move towards will be exactly what we need and what will bring us closer to what we desire for ourselves, our life and our professional spaces.

As human beings, we are afraid of change. We like to stay safe, in our comfort zones, and be in control of how things are.

We don’t like facing our fears. We tend to move away from discomfort, and shy away from growth because we assume it is going to take us on a dark road where there will be more confusion and chaos.

Here is the truth…

The hardest part is the process in which we go from fear to empowerment.

When our thoughts get in the way and build up a story and a drama of how things are going to go...

When we let fear dictate what we know, or how we pursue our journeys, we are staying safe in a space that is not meant for where we are going.

It is hard for us to claim our clarity in these moments because we lack trust in ourselves, in the greater plan, and our ability to step through the channel of discomfort.

Here are some words of wisdom I wish to give you today...

Discomfort is not going to kill you. It feels uncomfortable but staying in the place of confusion is going to cause you more grief than moving through it.

You know. Clarity lives within you. It is just buried under the fear right now. Confusion is a mask of fear. Let’s own that. It is not that you don't know.

Whatever challenge or obstacle you need to move through to get to your clarity, or to empower it will not conquer you. We find and remember our strength when we face opportunities to grow. Don’t let the fear keep you in a place of bypassing the discovery of your own strength and walking the path that is calling you forward.

It is going to be ok. Whatever change is being asked of you, know that we are never moved in a direction unless we are capable of holding it, or if it wasn’t what we were asking for on a deeper level.

Your relationships will survive. You will be loved. People will embrace you and there will be those who will celebrate you as you leap towards the clarity that is driving you forward.

Seek out spaces the remind yourself of your courage, which holds you accountable to your bravery, and do not allow yourself to let the fear take you in circles away from where you are clear. Mentorship, community, friendships. Settle into them. Let them feed you and lean into the spaces of support that you have.

A brief story and example of what I am speaking to here...

I had a woman journey with me for 6 months and that included a 3 day retreat with the horses. She came to us because she felt lackluster in her business and was uncertain about a new direction.

She was unaware of her strengths and not sure of where she was wanting to evolve in her vision. She just knew she was stuck and dissatisfied with what the current landscape of her business looked like.

On her arrival at our retreat center, we sat down on the porch outside the lodge and had a conversation.

I like to allow people to speak organically and pay attention to what comes up for them. She started to share her vision of her work, the legacy she wanted to build, excitement building as she did.

I smiled to myself as she spoke and then I turned to her and said this…

So you are clear.

She chuckled a little back to me. She was in fact deeply certain of her way forward.

So what’s the issue, I asked her, and then, the truth came out.

She was afraid that where she wanted to evolve in her practice was not going to manifest the way she envisioned.

She was afraid that the clients she was dreaming of working with didn’t exist.

She doubted herself in being able to hold the spaces of her work that felt deeply connected to.

She was clear and she was afraid.

Over the course of 6 months, I held her in her clarity, the transformation of her work. We navigated beyond her fears. She changed the model of her business and stepped into creating through the vision of her clarity.

What happened?

She found her passion in her work again. She attracted new clients. She added the escape of horses alongside her own work. This was a dream of hers to bring horses into what she did with clients.

She had her best first quarter in business, rebranded herself to a greater authenticity and found the realignment of her work.

There is a deep simplicity to the undercurrent of where we get stuck.

It is this…

We are afraid.

To make the change, to follow our path, to honor our congruency and say yes to where a part of ourselves is directing us to create through another certainty and power in our work.

If you find yourself resonating with this, take some time to be with this...

What is the clarity I am afraid of claiming?

What part of me knows that it is safe for me to claim my clarity?

And what are the first steps to take towards it?

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If you are a purpose driven visionary or entrepreneur that is seeking a space to be held in your clarity as you move into bigger spaces of your leadership and vision, and are looking for a place to be held in accountability in that, and are drawn and curious about the containers we hold for our community, connect with us here.

Wishing you deep courage to claim all the you are certain of.

Love your coach and guide,

Hillary

Three Years Later

December 18th, 2015.

That is the date I moved myself, 9 horses, 2 dogs and 6 chickens four hours away to interior British Columbia, up a mountain, to an 80-acre retreat ranch.

It was in the dead of winter. My horses arrived in the pitch black, and so began our journey to our new home and a dream of mine that I held since I was a young girl.

To rewind a little bit…

In 2015, this beautiful ranch showed up in my inbox. I was not seriously considering buying property, but one look at this facility and I knew this was something special.

 
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It also was a vision from my dreams as a young girl---a retreat center, with land for my horses, 80 acres, a creek, a beautiful lodge and place where people could stay.

I was starstruck.

It also came with a 1.2 million dollar price tag. But as someone who believes in going big for your dreams, I said yes to tryin. The ranch became officially ours in October of 2015.

When I moved to this property, I had lofty goals and dreams. I was naive in many ways, and also prepared for the stretch that would happen of being here.

But I wasn’t truly prepared for what would occur over these 3 years.

On the eve before my 3rd year anniversary, I wanted to share some reflections, of what happened after I bought the ranch, how the progression is going, and any wisdom I can hold, and also, celebrate for myself.

Year 1:

I wrote a blog about this year. It was the hardest year of my life. I was not prepared for starting a new business, hiring staff, taking on so much more than I could have anticipated.

My bills mounted. One of my beloved horse partners died somewhat traumatically. My adrenals went into fatigue and I got run over by one of my horses.

I lost myself in fear and doubt. I suffered anxiety and panic attacks, and it was everything I could do to survive.

It was a year where I doubted myself more than I ever have in my life. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to carry the vision of this place forward and I would fail in my attempt.

To read more about that reflection you can go here.

 
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Year 2:

Year two was about refinement, listening more deeply to my own instincts, coming into a place where I knew nothing about the hospitality business. I lost my confidence in my own internal knowing.

Year two, I found my way back to my intuition, to empowering my strengths and moving beyond what my difficulties, instead of treading water to try to keep my head above it. I found my legs and the space where I almost enjoyed the growth of what this space was asking me to step into.

The business grew. We were still way off our goals, but there was some hope beginning to emerge. My health was slowly starting to recover, more horses found homes with us, and we begun to find that pathway back to the vision that began our journey in the first place.

And here we are at year 3.

This past year was one where we are beginning to see what happens when you commit and stay in a journey and signs of a new life. More growth has happened.

We have officially hit 6 figures in our hospitality business, and although that doesn’t reflect complete profit, it was a huge milestone for us to hit.

Something that I was reflecting on as the overarching journey of these 3 years and the 3 years before was this... We all have different strengths. I am not the most business savvy person, or that is the belief I hold on myself.

I am a dreamer, a pursuer of purpose. I am deeply committed to my growth as a human being and as a leader.

I am passionate about the work I do. I am stubborn, intuitive, and I believe in the power and capacity of who we are as humans.

I am a big picture person, a visionary, an empath, introvert.

There are things that I am also really weak at.

 
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The last 3 years have illuminated my weaknesses deeply, where I still have places to grow, where I still allow my fears to take hold over me, but it has also really allowed me the experience of how important it was for me to know my strengths, and to put them to use.

Sometimes, the illusions that we paint for ourselves (and this has absolutely been true for me) is this...

We have to be perfect at everything. We can’t make mistakes. We have to know every single detail of how.

We tend to look at and focus on our flaws, where we are not measuring up, where we perceive failure, instead of really nurturing what we have done.

I will share with you one of the hardest and most powerful things I have done in my time here.

Self forgiveness.

I had to let go of the picture I had painted for myself, the goals I had set that I failed to reach and the story and shame I made up around that it meant I was a failure and I disappointed people.

My first year, I carried a lot of shame and guilt because I didn’t think I was living up to the idea or vision I had of myself and this place. And instead, I was drowning in the responsibility and reality of operating two business, a herd of horses, myself, staff, clients, paying the bills as a single young woman.

I put tremendous amounts of pressure on myself to achieve something I thought was doable, that of course I could step into, and when I discovered it was really way harder than I thought, I lost myself in the space of disappointment and failure.

 
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The last two years and especially this one, the majority of my work has been about letting go of those burdens, those falsehoods, those appearances of failure because I am not where I wanted to be, and I feel as though I am failing more than I am succeeding.

Internally I had to choose. I recognized I cannot carry the heaviness of my own weakness with me, the shame that I am carrying as a way to continue to perpetuate my idea of being responsible for what I perceive as mistakes, and choose instead, a place of peace and empowerment and forgiveness.

And then there was this one...

I am the eldest child. For as long as I could remember, I have had this belief system that I have to do it alone, that I am responsible for everything, which has been my pride and also my burden.

It has felt like it carried me at times and crippled me.

I discovered when I bought this place that the operating system I had around carrying things on my own was not going to work here.

I had to let go that it wasn’t just about me. I wasn’t the only one holding this space and to surrender to the help I had both with people in my life, and also in my own connection to my spiritual guides.

I had to dismantle the idea of who I thought I needed to be, that instead of helping me empower my vision was weighing me down so much I was forgetting who I was and the part of me that knew I can succeed in this space.

This year has been at most, a deep reflection internally, where I examined, let go of, and reclaimed pieces of myself that have been lost along the way. Pieces that were built up as a form of self-protection but was inhibiting me from my success. I had to strip away the ideas of who I thought I was and what I thought I could do.

I shed layers. I cried, I wrote, I danced and I rediscovered pieces of myself that I forget where there.

I forgave myself and I forgave others. I practiced kindness. I took better care of my health. I stepped into my power and my vision. I set boundaries. I created through my own depth and I found my way back to the authentic voice of myself that brought me to this place to begin with.

It is not an easy path for us when we really, really go for our dreams and the big things that we feel called to do.

It’s not easy for us to take honest reflections of ourselves, to let go of things that don’t serve us, to change.

It is uncomfortable for us to witness who we are in our strengths, to follow our intuition even when life is telling us something else, to be courageous in holding the vision and staying the course when we don’t see things falling into place the way we want.

It’s hard to pick ourselves up from failures, to keep trying even when we don’t think we can, to rebuild after devastation and failure, to admit we were wrong, to find wisdom in our mistakes.

But we can.

This journey these last 3 years has taught me more than I think most of my life has. It has brought me to my knees. It has stripped me of everything I thought I knew and had, but it also brought me back to myself and made me stronger.

I can feel the wisdom that has happened, the strength that has been forged. I can witness the impact of my stay for myself and for others.

And in that space, I have proven to myself especially that indeed, I have the strength and capacity to build, sustain and grow the things I feel moved to do in my lifetime.

 
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If I could offer you anything in this post, it is this...

There is a part of you that may not believe that you have what it takes.

That you are not ready or prepared.

That you don’t have the strength to empower your vision or build your empire, or the purpose that speaks deeply to you.

But there is a part of you that knows better, and sometimes, the things that challenge us are there because it is paving the doorway for us to find that in ourselves.

Ask yourself…

What is the invitation?

What is this experience bringing me closer to? What do I need to shed? Where can I let go of where I am holding myself hostage to how I think this needs to be, or who I think I need to embody to succeed?

Be courageous enough to forgive yourself. Let go of the shame and know that no matter how things appear on the surface something else is occurring behind it that is reflecting another truth.

No one said it would be easy.

But we can find ease in the journey, stay the course, and see what happens when we do.

Don’t be afraid of discomfort. Lean into the growth, surround yourself with positive energy and people that believe in you, and don’t quit before the miracle occurs.

I am 35 years old. I would not have thought, or believed I would be where I am today. When I broaden my vision I witness the impact of my gifts, the homes I have given to horses, the changes I have made in my clients, the inspiration that has happened from sharing my journey.

I have built two six figures businesses not thinking I knew anything about anything.

I lead with my intuition. I know who I am in the world. I am starting to remember the depth of my power and my gifts and this space (although not always an easy one for me to be in) has given me that gift.

An invitation…

If you are reading this, I hope this has inspired the journey in you. Truly what we shift within ourselves holds massive implications in our world, and our world gives us the catalyst to take that journey. Hold yourself with care as you are in it.

And then…

Part of our work in the world is holding space for other visionaries on a similar journey, supporting them in coming back to themselves, anchoring into their leadership, finding clarity in their medicine and their strengths and creating a container of work that empowers that in the world.

If you find yourself resonating with these words, and you are seeking a mentor to support you in your own growth and manifestation of the bigger vision and calling you have for your life, yourself and what you feel you are meant to create, I would love to explore if my spaces resonate for you.

You can read about my mentorship and coaching here. I include a private retreat at our ranch with the horses and this land as extra medicine and amplification of our space together.

Or if you are looking for a softer space of support, consider our year-long journey of manifestation and visioning for our community who is seeking guidance on the journey to be anchored in the deeper understanding of how to navigate through the cycles of life, stay focused on the vision and bring life to their goals. You can read about that here. Enrollment is open until December 31st.

Otherwise, you can also tune into my podcast to hear more of my sharing and wisdom from the herd and myself.

Thank you for witnessing and I hope this serves to inspire wherever you find yourself on the journey.

Love,

Hillary








Why We Have To Do the Scary Thing...

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Why do we have to do the things that scare us?

The things that open us up in the depths of the vulnerability we hold within us?

Every now and again, I am reminded of the power of doing what scares us and knowing that within that terror, we must be certain that we are on the right track because if it doesn’t scare us, it isn’t big enough.

I am known (I think) for doing big scary things--taking leaps and big risks in the name of purpose and you would assume that perhaps, I don’t get scared ever.

But I do…

The last week, I have been visited by two horses of mine, Shiva and Kali. Both were named after Hindu gods and goddess that depicts the energy and medicine of death, destruction and rebirth.

When we are holding fear, it is often an invitation into rebirth, of resetting and finding our way back to a deeper truth of authenticity and alignment within ourselves.

We get scared because we are moving closer to shedding outdated belief systems that are keeping us comfortable and there is a part of us as human beings that wants to keep safe.

But safety is an illusion that is only nurtured by fear.

I know when I am feeling scared that I am in fact on the edge of a big space of growth, an important decision and pathway for me to move forward with.

My dreams, my leadership, the purpose I hold in the world was birthed on this edge of fear and being scared, it drove me to understand that I was living out of alignment with my true nature and the space I was being moved towards and moving towards would mean change.

Transformation, shedding, leaving things behind---people, places, defaults, patterns.

We have to do the scary thing.

That might look like taking a leap towards your dream...

Moving across the country...

Changing your habits...

Acknowledging your own self worth...

Saying yes to an intuitive nudge without having any clarity or a picture of where it is taking you...

We must say yes to whatever form that is creating this feeling of fear because denying it means we are denying our own growth, our potential and the richness of the journey.

And to deny our growth means to deny our potential and to live a life in the empowerment of fear. And that’s not living or honoring our path and our journey’s.

Find what you need to support your fear. Listen to it’s wisdom and remember there is a part of you navigating alongside with you that offers a deeper space of knowing that all is well and this is where you are being called to be.



The Birth of Our Gifts (How We Know We Are Ready)

We are born innately with talents, strengths and gifts.

It comes with us, packaged into this human form, when we enter into this world.

Our journey is to be awakened to these gifts, to have them crafted and for us to remember that we have them within us.

How do we know when we are ready?

How do we recognize what we are born with?

Two days ago, I had a woman come out for a session with myself and the herd. As we were finishing up our time and walking away, leaving my big herd behind, I noticed my 6-month old colt, Apollo standing at the gate staring at us.

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I think Apollo has medicine to share with us.

This was one of the first times I have seen this young colt engage in this work.

As we walked over to his pen, he started to lick and chew. With horses, the lick and chew is an affirmation of a thought, an action and a recognition.

At 6 months, even though he might not “know” how to do this work, he innately understands he has a role in this herd and in this space for people to journey with.

He came over to the gate and stood with us as I asked my client, What part of you does Apollo represent that is coming to share a message?

Innocence, youth is what came up.

When we are young, before we know or have been labeled with something or been told who we are or what we are capable of, we have an innocence of knowing.

As we spoke to this, Apollo licked and chewed again., Looking at him in this moment, I could see the consciousness of his wisdom at the surface. No longer a young colt with wobbly legs trying to figure out this new life as a horse, he gazed at us with wise eyes and a knowing of it is time for me to step into sharing my medicine.

Apollo was born here. He represents to me that purity of consciousness. He will be nurtured in this space of teacher from birth and this is the space he will know for his life.

My horses all of them when they arrive here get time to settle, to integrate, to receive what they need in their bodies and choose when they are ready to step into role of teacher and share their wisdom.

Apollo showed us this past week that now is his time.

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The importance of sharing this story of Apollo and his journey is this...

We forget that within us there is a wise source of consciousness and being. Call it soul, spirit, god, divine. It lives with us.

It is born with us and we are born wise, knowing.

Though we still need support being formed and allowing for our raw talent to be honed, we have this essence within us still.

Most of the work I do with clients is a process of unlayering, of peeling back the imposition of beliefs and ideals that have been layered on us as we grow up, being so thick that we find ourselves disconnected from this part of us.

Our time with the horses is about reclaiming those pieces, finding them again so we can find strength in our vision, in our leadership and in the knowing of purpose of our gifts.

To be able to get access to the confidence that we carry within us so we may go forth in the world and share the medicine we were born to create.

If you are reading this and it resonates for you, my question or thought to you is this...

Where are you forgetting the true essence of who you are?

Where are you telling yourself a story that you need more experience, or training, or time in order to feel confident, and ignoring the call of that now is the time to share what you have within you?

Where you are needing to seek out the part of you that lives in purity of who you are without the labels and the places of disconnect that move you away from you remembering who you are?

And to perhaps find a way back to the part of you that Apollo might represent and what wisdom and medicine that aspect of yourself has for you right now?

I always love watching the emergence of my horses. It is powerful both for them and for the journey that it brings for myself and those that come to be in their medicine.




The Story of Thor

Two weeks ago, I got a call about a horse.

This is a call I get more times than people realize.

I recognized the voice on the message sounded desperate and my heart sank. I can’t take on another horse.

My herd of horses who are my partners in the work I feel called to do in the world are mostly former rescue horses. This means I give them homes and a second purpose, rescuing them from a fate that is often slaughter or euthanasia.

I have 26 horses now in my field. Twenty-two belong to me personally and the other 4 are boarded here.

Two weeks ago, I returned the call to this woman, expecting to say no to her, explaining that I am full, that I cannot take on another horse.

But then I heard her story. And I felt in my heart, and in my knowing, that he needed to be here and I needed to tell his story.

Thor is a 16 year old Fjord gelding with a previous life of being a jumping horse. He found himself with a family who had adopted him from another rescue after being encouraged to give him a home so he could be a riding horse and companion for their 16 year old daughter.

Shortly after, it was discovered that Thor was unsound lame. A vet checked him out and the prognosis was that Thor was not able to be a riding horse and his life was to be a companion.

The family was devastated. They reached out to the rescue who said they would take him back to euthanize him.

I will pause here on his story for a moment to reflect on something.

Many people who follow me know horses or are exposed to them for their teaching and their medicine. They are drawn to the energy of the horse because they recognize something is found there.

Part of my mission, although not always on the surface, is to shift how horses are viewed in the world, through providing experiences and sharing the medicine of them because the reality is, the equine industry can be an ugly place for horses.

I am not one typically to speak to issues such as this. I craft my words and shares through the lens of empowering and sometimes the voice that needs to be spoken is the full transparency of the stories and journeys we hold.

This is Thor’s medicine.

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The truth…

When horses are no longer deemed rideable, they are often seen as lacking value. They are discarded, mistreated, euthanized, or sent to slaughter.

I have seen this first hand. I have been exposed to this through the horses I give homes to and through my own experience working in the breeding industry in my past career.

What is important to me is to allow the shift to happen where horses are seen in their full value. They are incredible teachers for us, sentient beings that offer us an awareness and glimpse into our own wisdom and soul.

As I listened to this woman share the story of Thor, the desperation and the heartbreak her and her family felt hearing that this horse’s fate was to be put down, I was silently raging.

She shared with me she heard about me from a woman who knew of someone who’s horse had come to me (That horse would be Shiva.) and so she called me.

And I said to her.

Thor is not being euthanized. That’s not happening.

Her relief was palpable. She shared with me later, that she, her husband and daughter all cried because they could not fathom this horse being put down and now, he would have a home.

I sat at my home that weekend with my rage and I knew this horse has a powerful message and a part of it is to expose and share the fullness of what happens to these incredible animals that is not often spoken to, and for many, are unaware.

When I share with people the story of my horses, or that some are being discarded, people are appalled. What do you mean?

What enraged me the most about Thor is that it was a rescue and their barn who I would have thought and expected would want to value this horse's life. They were the ones that were insisting for his to be ended.

What is underneath the rage is grief.

I am heartbroken, that this family had to go through this as first time horse owners with this horse that has already had an impact.

That horses have to be viewed this way.

That I can’t always say yes to everyone or every horse.

But sharing a story can make an impact and have a difference.

To peel back the layers, what is at the core of this for me is this:

We cannot continue to see horses as just commodities that we can discard when they are unable to service us the way we want them to.

When horses are no longer able to be ridden, when they are not seen to have a purpose, they are often discarded or sent to fates such as slaughter, or a kinder way of being put down.

I look at how we treat horses as a metaphor for our own self. How quickly we are to dismiss ourselves and what we are capable of.

We do it in our society and we do it with them.

And it isn’t ok.

If I told the stories that I knew, of organizations that put horses down because they view them as not as easily adoptable, or that no one will want a feral horse, or an older horse that has a sore back or arthritis, or a stallion, because they are deemed and seen as hopeless causes that will add no value... You would rage alongside of me.

In order to change something, to shift the consciousness of it, we first must be aware of the darkness and where it does not serve.

I don’t believe that the horse industry as a whole or how we hold horses is in service of the horse, or really ourselves.

There are first nations community around us that send their feral horses that they do not manage for meat.

There are rescues that are sending out horses under the guise of them being sound when they are not, lining pockets to make money from the horse, but not doing what is right for them.

The SPCA is putting down horses that they don’t see as valuable, or have decided in their euthanasia tree that they won’t be successfully adopted out. We have one of them. Her name is Ostara. We fostered for the SPCA and quickly adopted her and her unborn foal, Apollo after we found out her fate. There are horses being put down within organizations that are meant to help them every single day and don’t because of money, or resources, or just simply that they do not care about the fate of the horses or other animals. They are not held with the same value or worthiness as our own.

The sharing of this story is not to create a hopelessness, but to expose a different aspect and connection to horses because the more that we are educated, the more we can shift something. There are also many, many organizations, rescues that are also doing wonderful things for horses and there is an expansion within the partnership with horses that offers a different perspective on it and we still have work to do for them.

Thor and his story lit a fire in me. It gave me courage to speak to a voice of the horses which is why I began this journey in the first place.

Everything I do...

The pursuit of my purpose, my dreams, the expansion and support of the work I do for other humans is to benefit the horses.

Because they showed me their medicine as a child, and I knew I had to share this with others.

Horses are losing their lives, often in ways that are a dishonour of them because we cannot see their value, or we choose not too.

Because they are seen as something we have to spend money on.

I am sad and I grieve for each horse that comes here and for the ones that I can’t take because I do not take them all.

I grieve for the people who are throwing away their greatest teacher, that are letting a piece of a divine consciousness go because they cannot see it.

I don’t write this to make those who cannot take care of their horses feel bad. I have many horses in my herd that came from really good intentioned people that wanted a different life for their horse and I was able to gift it.

But for the ugliness that still exists, where I have a responsibility to be a voice for it, to have the courage to speak to and expose something and offer another invitation to how we can see and hold these animals, I will.

Because of this...

I believe deeply horses chose to be in relationship with us. They are giving servants, in the saddles, on the ranches, on the racetrack. They give to us the way we have domesticated them to.

They are also in our lives, in humanity, to help us become more aware, to teach us about ourselves, to raise our consciousness, if we allow it.

Thor came galloping into my life to remind me of the voice for the mission I hold for these amazing animals---to wake people up to the value of their life, beyond the saddle, and perhaps, hold shift in how we see ourselves.

And his life has meaning. It has value. It has impact. He has a medicine to share and it will be shared here and it will evoke, and it will teach what it is meant to.

And in the honoring of the medicine of another, we honor ourselves.

Thor’s message to me was clear:

Find the strength in your voice and use it. Not just for yourself, but for the greater impact. Be courageous. Share the stories and remember the mission that started it all.

Thor was a powerful Norse god, fitting for this young and powerful horse. He came with his medicine name and he will keep it. A reminder that we are all born with medicine, including horses.

And it’s high time we begin to shift our awareness to recognize it.

And if you are reading this and the cause of the horse doesn’t speak to you, you may have something else that does. For me, the horses are symbolic of our own journey. They give life to as mirrors to what we are holding within ourselves.

Perhaps there is something else you in your life that you are a voice for. That is part of your own calling. Perhaps the medicine of Thor or reading this story is encouraging you to speak to it, even the ugly sides of it, for there is power in holding it all so we can make a change.

If I thought about the insignificance of my voice, or who am I speak to this... If I let the overwhelm of what I can’t do and it wouldn't be enough, I would continue to stay silent or soft in my speaking.

And that’s not what is being asked for. Even if you don’t think your voice is significant, that you cannot speak or share or step into what is yours to contribute to...

You can and you must.

I tell myself all the time, even if I cannot save all of the horses, and maybe in my lifetime there will not be a significant shift in how horses are seen, I still am having an impact for the ones I can touch, and that is enough.

Anything is enough.

So if this moves you, think about where it resonates and apply it to your own situation. Move with it, let the rage, the passion, the unfairness, the grief move you to action. We do not always see the impact of what we do but there is a ripple effect whether we ever witness it for ourselves or not.

I am grateful for these horses (and for Thor for reminding me of this) for continuing to give me courage to create, to share, to be brave in what I feel moved to create through the layers of purpose they bring into my life, and hopefully to yours.

If you like this blog, if it speaks to you, we would love if you would share it, comment, or begin a conversation with us on how we come together to support the horses.

And if you are moved to support our mission and support of our herd, including Thor, we created a Sponsor A Horse page, which goes towards empowering the placement for our horses at our space and it comes with an exchange we hope equally serves you and the acknowledgement of the space we give these horses.

We believe there are many of us that feel aligned in this mission and our hope is we can come together to change a greater whole for the betterment of these amazing animals.

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